Saturday, October 31, 2009

Happy Halloween

Hope everyone is enjoying Halloween. Mom, Cory and I had so much fun dressing Carson up and taking pictures. I waited until the last minute to get our pumpkin and Kroger was out of them, so we stopped at a small interior store that I had never been to before since they had a few left. Now they were picked over, but I am kinda glad because I got some different looking pumpkins that I normally wouldn't have picked and they made my backdrop beautiful! There are many more pics on my facebook page FYI.

Friday, October 30, 2009


Well I made it through my first week back at work. And I must say, it wasn't that bad at all. I miss Carson, but I know this is where I am suppose to be. And I might add, it is so nice to be getting paid again. One bad thing- I forgot how there is always food around at work and it is SO tempting. The boss had an afternoon pizza craving yesterday, they brought in chic- fil e' this morning........ughhh. I gave into the pizza yesterday and did not allow myself to eat dinner, and I was good this morning and ate my oatmeal instead of a yummy biscuit.

I am a proud coffee drinker now, and I don't remember why it tasted so bad in the past. I guess I like it now b/c I need it!

This week wasn't so tough on me b/c my mom has been keeping Carson this week, and I am very comfortable with her keeping him b/c she does things the way I ask and she knows him better than anyone else (besides Cory and me of course). I think she has seen Carson at least every 2 weeks since he was born. I wish she and my dad would move over here. Hint, hint.

I am very excited for Halloween! I can't wait to see Carson in his costume, I hope the weather permits us to take some pictures outside tomorrow, the leaves in our yard are so pretty!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Worst day of my life

So I took Carson to daycare for 1/2 a day today to let him and the staff get acquainted, I will be doing this once more this week and 2 or 3 times next week, so that he can get use to the people and the surroundings.

I knew he would do this.............

He woke for the day around 8:30 and was due to eat around 9. I waited until he seemed a little fussy to feed him b/c sometimes he doesn't eat on schedule, he may go 4.5 or even 5 hours between feedings sometimes. And I hate when he only takes a few sips and throws everything out of wack and I have no idea when he wants to eat again. SO OF COURSE he would start this morning (the 1st day of daycare) off like that. He wasn't interested in eating, so I went ahead and took him to daycare and told the teacher that she would just have to wait until he lets her know that he wants to eat, but SHE wanted me to give her a time. I said maybe 11 since he only had a few sips, but just wait and see. They called me around 11:30 asking if there was any "trick" to get him to eat. So I reiterated that some days you just have to wait until he lets you know. All I could picture was him screaming and arching his back, and them trying to force feed him. I told them if he is content with swinging and having his pacifier, to let him be. He will let you know when he is hungry. I told them that he probably needs to poop, and on "poop days" (he doesn't go everyday) he doesn't have much of an appetite. THANK GOD they have swings there b/c I think that is the only thing that will sooth him on days like this (besides me). I forgot to count how many babies were in there, it seemed like a lot. So I called around some other daycares out of curiousity, and the one that only had 5 babies is way to expensive for our budget. I might as well stay home with him, which is not an option.

What made me feel a little better is that my boss is very understanding and I am certain I could work from home some of the time. But when I came home to get some work done, OF COURSE today of all days, my internet card malfunctioned. So I have spent hours on the phone with AT&T. This is so stressful.

While I was on the phone with AT&T my dog vomited on the carpet so I am going to clean that up now, and then try to get some work done, I don't see how I am going to focus. I hate this day.



I went back to get him, since they tried to feed him again and he wouldn't eat. So he stayed from about 10-2. So, he has snacked all day and won't take a full bottle for a while. I counted the babies in there and there were 8 - from what I could tell, it was so chaotic. They have there hands full, I feel so stupid writing an instruction sheet (which I forgot to take) on how to soothe and feed Carson as if they would have time to read it, let alone actually pick him up and give him some attention. I hate this.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Baby News...

He actually laughed this morning, it was so funny, b/c I would laugh at him, then he would laugh at me, and so on. That is the sweetest little sound. He is always so happy on the changing table, don't know why. He also coos and sorta laughs at TV, Sesame Street to be exact.

As far as other milestones, etc... go, I think he is doing pretty good:
  • he is sleeping around 4-6 hours at a time at night which is the definition of "sleeping through the night" for a baby his age
  • eats up to 6 oz some feedings
  • turning from his back to his side
  • sticking his hands and other items in his mouth
  • started a little bit of drooling
  • He has a very strong grasp, he pulls my hair and scratches me, I don't mind though

Thursday, October 15, 2009


No other words need to be said!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Weight Loss and daycare

I am getting into a better routine with exercise, I walked 3 times last week, once this week and today I tried a workout DVD that I bought. Its the Biggest loser cardio workout, it was pretty tough mainly b/c I haven't done anything like that since college. My only criticism is that the music is boring and you can barely hear it. Hoping to add a yoga and a kickboxing DVD to the collection. I get bored easily to I have to mix it up in order to stick with exercising for good.

My goal for now is to do some type of workout 3 times each week. As for diet: yeah right! With a baby in the house, I eat whatever I can whenever I can. For example today I had chocolate milk around 12pm, then a frozen burrito around 2pm. Some days babies just need more attention and you don't have time for yourself. I am down to 5 pounds within pre-preggo weight, but my belly is still really loose....if there is anyone out there who gained A LOT of weight (I am talking 40+ lbs) and can tell me when the skin tightens back up, or does it? God I hope it does b/c I can now fit into some of my jeans, but the flabby belly looks so terrible hanging over, I just can't be comfortable wearing them.

I watched a few episodes of Baby Story today and it made me so sad, b/c my maternity leave is coming to an end and I won't get to see my baby as much. I hope the first few weeks fly by.

I also don't know how I am going to make all of this work when I start working again. I don't want to hear that the chores can wait; when you have a baby in daycare, bottles MUST be washed and diaper bag MUST be packed, baby HAS to have a bath, we both MUST have clean work clothes, so no...some things can not wait. I have a feeling my inner nag will come out soon.

I began the prep for daycare yesterday. I am gonna take him twice a week over the next couple of weeks to get him use to it. I bought a box of diapers and wipes and put his name on them. I also had to label his bottles (Mable's Labels...awesome). It is so bittersweet....this working mom thing. I would love to stay home forever with Carson. But at the same time, I have found out just how valuable I am at work which helps make me want to go back. I want to be successful and contribute to the family income, I want fabulous clothes and shoes, I want to travel, go out for expensive dinners and not worry about it, keep adding to my wishlist at ShaneCo., ............but it makes me sick to my stomach having someone else take care of my baby all day, seeing his milestones before I do and telling me about them. I just try to focus on the positive outlook, we will be so much more financially comfortable w/ my income, Carson will learn to self soothe, to share with others, make many more friends, and people with SO much more experience with babies than I have will enhance his development...or at least I hope that is the case, we will see.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Update and baby items

Carson is doing much better, we have been giving him the zantac for a few days now and yesterday he seemed to have a bad feeding when we gave him his apple/prune juice, so when the nurse called today to check in on him I asked her if the juice would make it flare up and she said it was possible, so we discontinued the juice and he had a great day! I have been taking so many pictures lately b/c I haven't been stressed about him being in pain and b/c he is in such a great mood all the time. He barely cried at all today...I just hate that he had the reflux for so long and I didn't know what is was and that something was actually wrong...I just thought he was fussy and needed to burp a lot.

So a word to any moms to be: if your baby is arching his back, and crying during feedings and doesn't seem content after a burp, can't make up his mind if he wants the bottle or not...its reflux and there is a simple remedy for it. BTW this is not just formula babies, breastfed babies can have this problem as well. I always feel so guilty because I wasn't able to BF for very long and thought that the bottle charade, the gas, bm consistency issues, and the reflux were all my fault, but the more I read and the more I talk to other moms I realize that BF babies have their share of issues as well. I always thought that breastfed babies lived in a perfect world....but I have learned that with all babies, EVERYTHING is trial and error and all babies get gas, tummy aches, and spit up, etc...

Now that I have been a mom for a little over 2 months, I have learned a few things; here are items that I can't live without:

A swing is a MUST. This thing is a lifesaver. Babies LOVE motion and when I need to get things done I just plop him in the swing and he loves it (assuming he isn't hungry and has a clean diaper). Its like a mini babysitter. Its better than the bouncer b/c of the motion. I have this little lamb swing which is good for both boys and girls, it swings both directions, has a mobile and has music and nature sounds b/c babies DO get bored. (Target and babies r us)
I think the spin and dry rack speaks for itself. There are so many things being used and washed in rotation for a baby, that everything clean just stays on this rack and it doesn't take up much space at all. (Target and babies r us)

This little bear plays 3 different songs, womb and nature sounds. It will strap to the crib, but we just take it wherever Carson goes b/c he likes noise, and I think it is so calming. I will probably send it to daycare with him, or get another one to keep there. (Target)

For Carson, these playtex drop in bottles work really well, and they are very low maintenance which I will be thankful for when I start back to work in a few weeks :(
We tried Avent, which were fine for him, but they leak terribly and are SO expensive; we tried playtex ventaire but he spits up a ton w/ those and he was ready for a faster flow nipple after 3 weeks, but they don't offer a medium flow, and he couldn't keep up w/ the fast flow. So I jumped on the playtex website and took a quiz which told me that drop ins were good for us, and it worked, and they had a medium flow nipple! (Target, Wal-mart, babies r us)

Loads of crap (in my opinion) -
  • Pee-Pee TP's (shields for when baby boys pee when you remove the diaper: after you wash it, it doesn't go back to its original form, we just use a wipe)
  • Special swaddling blankets: waste of $ (the large flannel ones are great)
  • Buying brand names (we buy the off brand in almost everything - formula, drop ins for his bottles, detergent for babies, tummy drops which is the off brand for mylicon, target brand baby tylenol..its the SAME, and when we finally have to buy diapers and wipes and baby soap, that stuff will be target off brand as well, unless the diapers leak, we'll see) But I do love pampers swaddlers, they are SO soft.
  • Baby "bath and spa"...we registered for this and received it. It has a sprayer that we thought would help and we have used it once, now we use a cup b/c its quicker but the actual tub is great. I can't wait to just throw him in the kitchen sink when he gets big enough!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Found a fun hobby....

I started to play with my pictures and try to give them better quality and it was really fun. Here are a few of my favorites that I edited:

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

How's the baby...

People ALWAYS ask you this question when you have the baby (and I do it to), kinda like when you are pregnant you are constanly asked "are you ready?" and "how are you feeling" and everyone knows the answers are "I feel like crap and of course I am ready", but it gets so old telling the same story over and over, so here is what is up with Carson recently....

I had noticed that he became increasingly fussy with feedings, it wasn't every feeding but for the past couple of weeks I knew something was going on and that he appeared uncomfortable while eating. Burping didn't help, he just wanted to be held upright in the burping position for a LONG time. He arched his back, screamed, couldn't make up his mind if he wanted his bottle or not, was spitting up, and had the hiccups like always....

So yesterday it finally made me feel so bad for him I got on babycenter and studied his symptoms which turned out to be reflux. So I got him in to see the Dr. today who confirmed what I suspected and he got a prescription for Zantac. Hopefully he can enjoy eating again soon.
However, he was in a great mood today and I got some good pictures:

Saturday, October 3, 2009


This video is from a couple of weeks ago, I know some of you have seen it already, but I have been having some internet issues so I wasn't able to post until now.

Carson is doing very well; he got his shots yesterday (heartbreaking); everything else looked good and he weighed 12 pounds 5 oz. He is still waking up twice each night to feed, but sleeps well in his crib still. My mom came for a visit this week and it has been nice to share the night shift with someone. Mom bought him some good books for infants (big and simple pictures and colors) and when he is happy and alert I like to read to him. I forget to do tummy time a lot...mostly b/c he really doesn't like being on his belly, so it doesn't cross my mind enough, but I am not worried since he is doing well holding his head up so far.

Me: major set backs in the weight loss area....w/ mom visiting we have been meeting my aunt and cousin for lunch everyday and ordering pizza and eating sweets. Also now that it is football season, that means beer and fatty foods! Appetite is back in full swing! I have been walking maybe 3 times, I have to time it right for Carson b/c of heat and mosquitos, etc... and my feet have grown so EVERY pair of shoes I own (except flip flops) hurt my feet. Lots of excuses I know but every mother out there knows that you need to make things as easy as possible when there is a baby in the picture, so these are some things that get in my way.